Here Am I

You are not to seek repentance, but rather, holiness. There is a difference.

The desire to be holy springs from the desire to be closer to God, to enter into His presence, and to gaze in adoration upon His face. The first, faltering steps toward Holiness almost immediately results in the humiliation of Godly sorrow, because it becomes instantly apparent that you fall short of that which is necessary to enter God’s presence. All your sins stand out in bas relief*. It becomes very clear that you need a Savior. Repentance is the willingness, born of desire for God and humble awareness of one’s own sin, to accept the Holy Blood of the Savior in order to gain God’s presence.

To seek holiness is to seek God Himself.

*Note: Bas-relief (pronounced bah-relief) refers to fine lines carved into stone. The design stands out from the background and is especially apparent when light casts shadows across the design.

Scripture: "'Woe to me!' I cried. 'I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty.'


"Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. With it he touched my mouth and said, 'See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for.'

"Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, 'Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?'

"And I said, 'Here am I. Send me!'" (Isaiah 6:5-8).

Have You Forgotten?

Dear One. Child. Have you forgotten? How easily you forget that the Lord is your sustenance and strength.

Do not relegate the privilege of hearing His voice into a closed room, labeled, “To be opened when I am obedient.”

....but Joy Comes...

Grief recalls former grief. Similarly, happiness shades the past so that all memories seem happy. You will be happy again. Your memories will sweeten as this present grief lessens.

The Lord does not count your wounds as being small or inconsequential. Abide in Him. Know where your heart resides. The Lord is with you.

Scripture: "Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes, with your right hand you save me. The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O LORD, endures forever--do not abandon the works of your hands" (Psalm 138: 7-8).

Additional reading: Psalm 13.